Little Blessings

For some strange reason, I was compelled to think that I need to buy flowers tomorrow. When I checked the calendar, I saw it was September 8. Nothing special I thought but then again I have a little place for the #8 in my heart because it reminds me of my families last name and Mama Mary. Without confusing the dates, let me tell you why I really look up and venerate Mama Mary and I hold the date December 8 close to my heart. You see, I conceived Joshua (my first son) end of October. I wasn't married yet but was serious with my then boyfriend, Josh. I found out I was pregnant on December 8. I remember hearing mass and praying that I wasn't. But then, at the back of my head I knew I was and I was silently asking Mama mary to help me get through this. After all, I felt I wasn't ready for something so big. Then again, Mama Mary wasn't ready when she was given the monumental gift of Jesus, right? But she accepted without second thoughts. Sadly, I wasn't like her. I remember wanting to abort my baby the moment I saw the 2 lines appear. It took me 3 days to realize how wrong it was for me think this! Maybe she opened up my eyes and my heart for the gift, I don't know. One thing I do know is that suddenly I had a change of heart. I wanted the baby. I surrendered everything to him and decided that I will keep my child no matter what happens. I believe it was with Mama Mary's grace that gave me the strength to accept my gift. How easy it is for us to dismiss gifts from the Lord but not material gifts from our families or friends, I thought. September 8 is the Feast of the Nativity of Mary who became the Mother of Jesus Christ. She is indeed, worthy of our veneration and prayers. Just so I don't forget her gifts - flowers is a nice thing to have on that day.